We've started a new year. We've started a new opportunity to be a better person. A happier person. It's no secret that I'm one of the worst bloggers around. Why? Because no one reads it. And that had been a difficult thing for me to handle for years. So I feel I don't need to try.
2018 was a bad year. No only because there's a new problem with the cunt in the White House every day, but with people in general. People have gotten more violent and uncaring. As a society, it is clear that we are declining.
It's been extremely difficult attempting to stay positive over the last 12+ months. But that is going to change.
I am going to fight for positivity. No more depression. No more doubting myself or my writing. If people don't want to read my blog, big fucking deal! I don't care anymore. The time for change is now!
No more thoughts of suicide (yes, there have been days). No more self-depreciation. I will do whatever I can to be successful. I will not …
Well, Steve and I are chugging along.
This whole separation thing with his work has been taking its toll on us. Only a few more months, but it feels like years. But each day and week that goes by means we're that much closer to being done, and we'll be able to get back to a normal life.
I see him every four or five days. They are now times even more cherished, I guess. Which is a good thing. On the days when Steve's in Denver, I go to work, and then I come home and spend a few hours writing.
And each day passes, one after the other. Some are easier than others. But each day that does pass gets us closer to being done with this current challenge. Let's hope it's the last one for a while.
But on the plus side, I'm getting a lot of fucking work done.
For those of you who may not know, Steve and I had put the Cabin Above the Clouds on the market. The reason for this was due to Steve's job transferring him to Texas in a few months.
While we try to be optimistic about it all, it doesn't lessen the fact that it is painful, and yesterday was a bad day. This was supposed to be our forever home. But that turned out not to be the case. So we will have to say goodbye to the mountain, the view, the deer, turkeys, and bears.
You never know when life is going to turn everything upside down. Got to learn not to get too comfortable.
Who knows what our future will bring, but this time I'll go into it with my eyes wide open.