Life of Pol

  Well, I see that each of my blog posts gets fewer and fewer views. This is exactly why I didn't keep up with my blog for all these years: lack of interest. It's very difficult to deal with feelings of insecurity over and over again. To be made to feel that your boring and not worth the time. But I'm supposed to push through and keep on going. But for what? So I can waste time, only to see some teenager make millions on YouTube because they post dumb videos? Everything is backwards. People who bust their ass get nothing, while those who sit around get rewarded. I don't know what I can do to make my blog posts more appealing. I've tried not to focus too much on all the negativity that is going on in the world, but it's difficult when that's all I see. I didn't wake up in a bad mood this morning. It was a pretty nice morning, even had a great workout. But I can't avoid seeing bit and pieces of news on TV and social media that just keep pounding it int

We were shocked yesterday when we learned of the passing of Chadwick Boseman. At 43, he was so very young. RIP 😢

Yesterday I woke with a horrible headache that lasted on and off throughout the day and into the evening. This morning, however, I woke up feeling as if nothing had happened. That being said, I can feel a slight pressure beginning to build, because of the lingering smoke, but if yesterday was at a level 10 on the pain scale, right now it's at a 1. We're expecting a cold front in a few days that will lower temps and blow the smoke away, so hopefully that number will be a 0 before long. We did manage to go and get our flu shots yesterday, and the wait wasn't that stressful. There were only a few people who showed up after us, and we were in and out in about half an hour. It's nice to have peace of mind that we got the shot. I can't wait for the day when we can go get the shot for Covid-19. Other than tending to my head the past few days, not much has been going on around the apartment (I feel weird calling it "home" because it's not. It's an apartmen

  My day started at 3:45 this morning when I woke up with yet another excruciating headache. Of course, no matter how much I don't want it to, this will set the tone for the rest of the day. I had intended to work out this morning, but couldn't do that. I was going to work on notes and edits for my books, but I couldn't do that, either. It's taking all can to type correctly here. I don't want to watch TV because it's all the morning news, and that will only bring me down further. There's no much I can do about the situation, with all the fires around us, the smoke isn't going anywhere any time soon. So, in this 95 degree heat, we'll try to run the AC as little as possible as to not suck in any of the smoke from outside. Good times. We're also going to Walgreens today to get a flu shot. They say be prepared to wait about 45 minutes. Great. My anxiety level should be wonderful by the time we get done. Stay safe. Mask up. Protect others. 💓

 

 I may have used that title on a previous post, but it's a phrase that I'm reminded of consistently. If 2020 hasn't brought with it enough heartache, California and Colorado are on fire. Multiple forest fires are scorching the states. One of the fires in Colorado is the largest in its history.  We can't go outside much, because the smoke is so bad. I had a pretty bad night last night because I started getting  a bad headache around three in the afternoon, and it only grew worse throughout the evening. It was borderline migraine by the time I crawled into bed. My head is better this morning, but I'm still feeling a bit off. And of course the smoke is just as bad today, so I have to stay in as much as possible. It makes me think again about the Cabin Above the Clouds. While it was amazing living up there, and I still miss it very much, I am reminded that, even though it was painful to leave, it's a good thing we sold the house when we did. There is no AC in the ca

  This year hasn't brought with it much hope for a bright future. But it has brought one thing that gives way to a light at the end of the tunnel.  Joe Biden and Kamal Harris.  With God's blessing, they will be our next President and Vice President. And when that happens, I won't be ashamed to say the word "president" out loud. I won't be afraid to turn on the television in the morning. I won't be afraid to get on Twitter in case it's covered with idiotic tweets and insults.  America will finally begin to heal. Literally and figuratively.  We just have to pray that everyone votes, and also that tRump doesn't mess with the elections. He has already attempted defunding the post offices to slow down the mail, because of mail-in votes. He's a cheater and crook, and the one thing I still fear is that he will cheat his way to another term. If that happens, America will fall.  But I have to have faith that there will be such an overwhelming amount o

  At least one bit of good news in 2020, Luthor came in 2nd place in the Legaia Books contest! I found out yesterday, and to be perfectly honest, no amount of positive thinking could squash that little voice in the back of my mind that was whispering, "You didn't win." Even when I saw the email, as I opened it I had that feeling of, Okay, let's see who did win . And when I saw Luthor in the 2nd place slot, there was a moment of holy shit! I had to look it over again to be sure I wasn't missing anything, and that I was seeing what I was seeing. Nope, it was really true. I have to say, it's an ego booster. One I really needed. It's that little bit of gas in a tank that was almost empty. Thank you to anyone who voted for Luthor , or even to those who  have simply read it. You know how dear this book is to me, and I owe any and all future success to you and your support. If you haven't yet read Luthor's heart-wrenching tale, Check it out HERE on Ama

 Here it is, another Monday. For me, Mondays aren't a bad thing. It's the start of a new week, and better television is on. Weekend TV sucks. But seriously, there are times when I do dread the beginning of a new week. It only means more of the same. Try as we may, the repetitive days and boredom have been taking their toll, as is only natural. And another week beginning with nothing new is in sight. Just more of the same.  But we know there's nothing we can do about it, and remaining at home as much as possible is the smartest, safest, and most responsible thing to do at this time. Because as boring and frustrating as it may be at times, we still remember that there is a horrific pandemic going on, and there is no end in sight until next year. It seems, lately, I can't watch the evening news without crying at least once. I battle with needing to know what is going on in the world and not wanting to know. I don't want to see the amount of people who have died, while

  It's no secret to anyone who knows me knows what a fan I am of the Twilight books. I had recently did a post about the newest installment, Midnight Sun . That book sold a million copies in the first week !  What it must feel like to have the kind of success. Stephanie Meyer and JK Rowling have created amazing franchises with their books. I dream one day of having Twilight -like success. I dream of it happening with my Serpenteens series. The Twilight series was actually a huge inspiration when I was creating Serpenteens . The teenage siblings with superhuman powers. The bond between them. I mentioned in an earlier post that Brodee, the muscle-bound homeless member of the family, was influenced by Emmett in Twilight . I can't imagine a more perfect time for people to discover the group of teenagers who are trying to save the planet one horrific storm after another. At a time when our planet needs help more than ever, and more focus needs to be drawn to it. Kody, Talan, Lana

 I try every morning to be positive, but every morning seems more and more difficult to do that.  Yesterday Steve and I had to run a few errands, which meant going into two or three different stores. Normally that would have been fun. But by the time we were almost done with the last errand, my nerves were frayed.  As we shopped at our last errand in the grocery store for a few things, including chicken fajita meat for dinner, I tried to be as calm as possible. Even when I asked one of the clerks were chicken fajita meat is and he replied, "Refrigerated?" I was nice enough to simply pause a moment and say, "It's chicken," instead of what I wanted to say which was, "No, dumbass, give me the room temperature meat, instead!" We never found the meat and ended up grabbing a pizza. 😡 Finally, we got back home where we were safe and sound. But the day set the mood for the remainder of the evening. I try not to worry about what's to come, but reports of

  As I've mentioned several times over the last few months, I have been having a difficult time with sleep. I fall asleep with no trouble at all, it's just remaining asleep that I've been fighting with. It's usually around 3am in the morning (which in itself is beginning to freak me out), I wake up. Of course, because I'm awake, nature calls. By the time I go answer it and get back to bed, I'm more awake, even though I use only my phone for light as to not turn on anything brighter during the process. Still, I climb back into bed, hopeful that sleep will overtake me because there's that moment of utter comfort as I sink into the mattress and my head forms into the pillow. After about thirty seconds of utter comfort, I change positions. I make it a minute before the next change. This will usually continue for the next hour. After I fall asleep right before 4am, I wake up thirty minutes later to start the day with the dogs.  I've been trying different thi

  Well, it's another day. I haven't been as diligent with my blog lately, only because not very much has happened with us lately, since all we do is hang out at the apartment. I didn't want to come on here and just complain again, in fear of this blog becoming the bitch center for people who refused to wear a mask and tRump supporters (which are kind of the same thing). Steve and I have fallen back in to our earlier quarantine routine now that he is home full time again. Due to recent turn of events, we will remain in our apartment (on the third floor!) for another year, or until I get that huge breakthrough and a movie deal, whichever comes first. 😏 I did get the new Twilight book, Midnight Sun . I loved it, as I figured I would. It was the original story told through Edward's eyes, and it really opened up so much to the the story. So many questions were answered and even more fun information was added to how the Cullens live. And I had forgotten how big and hunky Em

Pixies and goblins and witches and nymphs, those are only a few of the creatures that live in a land called Irisia—the land inside a rainbow. It is a land seventeen-year-old Leo Shaw never knew existed until the morning he’s walking along a beach and finds the end of a rainbow and meets a leprechaun named Finn. Suddenly everything Leo knew or thought he knew about magical fey creatures was challenged as he helps Finn recover his stolen pot of gold. But bringing a human into Irisia creates an entirely new set of problems, and finding gold takes a back seat to staying alive, because as beautiful as Irisia is, there are dangers around every corner. With the help of a fairy named Fae, Leo and Finn encounter one life-threatening road block after another, and Leo finds strength within himself he never knew existed. All the while, coming to terms with the strong feelings of love that continues to grow between him and his leprechaun.

"The book Reunion is a brilliantly told spine-chilling story by one of my favorite authors Pol McShane. As an author, he is already known for his young adult series Serpenteeens and Genie (in a Bottle) and with this ghost story Pol McShane takes storytelling to a whole other level of eeriness and spookiness with the story told in this book. The book is absolutely riveting from the beginning to the end." Get your copy now at Amazon !

So, now the leader of the country (God, I hate even referring to him as that) is claiming that he is going to ban Tik Tok. Really? There's violence in the streets, (most of which he caused) and people dying by the thousands each day, yet his big concern is banning an app.  Why? Because the kids pulled one over on him with his rally with Tik Tok. He is still butt hurt about being made a fool of (you'd think he would to it by now), that he can't see straight. This moron is really going off the deep end. Trying to delay the elections (whatever), talking nonsense at his press briefings, flip flopping on Covid19 information and mask wearing. Oh, and last night he tweeted that four years ago he beat Obama and he can do it again. What the fuck? Does it really have to be explained to him that Obama wasn't running? There are so many things I worry about these days, but one of the main ones is the upcoming election. I am hopeful that tRump's reign will end, but he's such